"The Lowblowers" by Eloise Banting

Glittering high heels,

An extension of my soul,

Freedom of my heart,

But they say I dance on a pole.

My spirit is so alive,

Each and everyday,

My spirit is so happy :-)

Though I cringe at what they say.

They have claws so cruel,

With sharp talons I have feared,

I shudder when he tells me,

“You’re fuckin weird!”

But I smile with a smile,

With a smile so strong,

I drop it at the doorway,

Yet it won’t stay for long.

Now one lurks in the corner!

Makes an assault so fast,

His nose so putridly nosey,

He posts a pic ridiculing a gidddy past!

Everyday I see,

 Happy happy on the card,

But another only sees static,

His post says stop trying so damn hard!

His next newsworthy attack -

Just an obsessive little insult,

Says that I’m too open, 

And that depression is my fault!

Long ago it was true,

I made mistakes so dumb,

But the crows spoke of a few -

That I already learned from!

So irrelevant so crude,

Are such heartless shock attacks,

It makes me feel better,

That I also speak long after the fact!

They spoke of things forgotten,

My dead gone issues like a hater,

Of things not their problem,

Yet I can’t too a while later?

Gossip’s spread,

Gossip’s told, 

Gossip’s Godless,

Gossip’s bold!

Yet I learn everyday,

From mistakes I humbly make,

So don’t think they’re yours,

Or your own little steps to take!

These examples are just a few,

Of what some say for fun,

They didn’t just say it to my face,

They said it to everyone!

There are definitely some others,

People that blow me to the core,

I will not name names,

But according to homegirl I’m a wh*re.

Not to worry I am healed,

And I’m a true happy camper!!

I love life each second,

My happiness won’t be hampered!

I own up to my flaws and stumbles,

And I don’t want to hold a grudge,

But I don’t need malicious words,

When it’s not your business or yours to judge. 

I wouldn’t write this poem,

If I wasn’t a little hurt,

You were nasty for a reaction,

And it obviously worked.

I have such a beautiful life,

And no need to throw a fit,

I am so indescribably happy,

(It’s wonderful!)

Just back off a little bit :-)